Anticipation

April is going to be a wonderful month. I look forward to the moments it will bring, the people I will spend time with and time I will spend just marveling at nature. My son will return from a year in Iraq, my first grandchild will make her grand entrance and spring will be in full swing. Wow, that is a great combo. I find myself vacillating between anxious anticipation and a wonderfully warm calm as I look forward to enjoying the moments to come. This anticipation, this excitement spills over to all aspects of my life as I focus on what is yet to be and what I will get to be a part of.

I realize that this is how I could feel most of the time. I have something wonderful to look forward to everyday. Heaven. Most of the time my perspective is very short-sighted, a moment, an hour, a day, maybe a month or two. I forget about eternity. Eternity already started and I forgot. I could be living with the excitement, the anticipation, the surety that I am already a part of something spectacular and the best is yet to come. I could let the wonderment spill over my every day. Unfortunately, I can only practice it moment by moment. I still live here. Now. But God knows that too.